Dear Love,

I wanted to write this last night but the pain was just too raw. I randomly saw a link a few minutes ago and I know I had to write something.

People are wondering why we broke up. While I didn’t and don’t want it to happen I understand why it happened. I accept your reasons.

Thank you for being a great boyfriend! Even if it lasted just three months. Thank you for taking care of me, for being proud of me, for giving me reasons to be hopeful, for believing in me! Thank you for the memories! There is an endless list of reasons that I need to thank you for, most of all… I thank you for loving me and for telling the world that you do!

Thank you for changing me without asking me to change! I will never regret everything we shared, I will never regret that I loved you.

You have been very good and you deserve this chance to focus on you, your family, and your work. I support you and I will continue to support you for a long time. I know you’ll do great.

I survived Day 1 without you. And I will thrive, my love. Don’t worry about me. Though I am sad and in pain, I will pull through. I will be great.

I remain hopeful it will still be us. And I will hold on to that hope for as long as I can. No promises, no expectations, no pressure on you my love. Only hope.

No matter what happens, no matter how this story ends… you are the first guy I loved who loved me back in return, earnestly and sincerely.

May you find whatever it is you’re looking for. Enjoy your life even as you work hard to achieve your dreams.

I leave you with the song that inspired me to write this post…

“I know you
Haven’t made
Your mind up yet
But I would never
Do you wrong
I’ve known it
From the moment
That we met
No doubt in my mind
Where you belong”

I love you.

Ria

Image courtesy of DJ Tadena.