It's inevitable. Every break up is painful. No matter how many bad fights you've had, no matter how long a time you've been actually been waiting for it to happen, it still stings. I think most of the time, it's not the being left alone, being left behind that hurts. It's the doubts, the unanswered questions, the asking when the lies must have started, when did the love fade, when did it start slipping away, and the loss of the confidence that cause greater pain. It's the unanswered question of "what the f*ck went wrong when I thought everything was going well" that makes us cry. Nobody (in his right mind) enters a relationship with the foresight or the expectation that it will crumble or end somehow. One enters a relationship with the expectation, the idea that it will be develop into a deeper one, it will last long, somehow. So when it happens, when what you fear finally arrives, when it ends, you start questioning yourself, the other person, the relationship, and everything that happened. Was the love even real? Were the happy moments really happy? You question yourself. You ask if there's anything wrong with yourself, could you…
Month: June 2009
The Search for More Pangga
Because we most definitely want more, more, more pangga... Video by maryrose23g with the blurb... Napagtripan kong gawan ng drama ang mga kasambahay namin. ayun! may konting error pero ok lang.. try namin iremake. YUN NAMAN! BEST! BIDYO! EVAH! Join the Give Us More Pangga! Movement by re-posting this bidyo made of win. Kudos to Coksiblue for discovering this gem. :)
Television is Dead
Take time to party and celebrate the death of TV as the first and only Online Filipino Video Channel officially launches. Flippish is launching it's bundle of LOLs, information, and emo-ness as they throw a bash to tell the world that TV is dead and Flippish is it! Join the fun and meet your favorite Flippish celebs such as Kring and Chrina on July 2, 8 pm at Fiamma. Register here to be included in the guest list. ;-)
Light the Beacons
Say No to Con Ass! Light the beacons of hope in your hometown, in your blog, wherever you can.
Loneliness
These past few weeks have been good ones, but somehow, my smiles are forced and fake. I can't sleep well, and I avoid being alone. Kuya Andrew has noted that even if I do look better, my smiles aren't the same. I thought it must be caused by the heartbreak. I would like so much to blame the loneliness, sadness on him, but that would be unfair. Despite the relative success I've had, and all the wonderful things happening to me and around me, I realize I'm still that broken little girl. I am that girl still waiting to be told that I am worthy, I am wanted, I am loved. No matter how many of my dreams come true I will still need that pat in the back, somebody's approval. Even if I have accepted, let go, and moved on, a part of me will never heal. I feel it now, more than ever. The pain, the sadness, the loneliness. As I slowly achieve my goals, reach the things I have aimed for, I still need to be assured, told over and over again, that I make people happy. I need to find it in myself, within me, my…
Happy Birthday Kuya!
The Kuya ng Bayan with Ria and Gwing Mica said he is the bestest Kuya in the world, and I agree. While he is their family's bunso and he has no younger siblings, but he is everybody's Kuya. He is tons of fun and is very much adventurous. But the thing he loves most, I think, is eating. We went somewhere extra far last night just so we can try this new Korean restaurant. He's picky with his food though. He doesn't like liver, dried fish, bagoong, patis, and vinegar, among others. But when he does like something, asahan mo, we'll go to that place every chance we get. Although he's very fun-loving, he takes things seriously. He'll scold you and get scary when you're being pasaway. But he'll also allow you to be emo and cry when you have to. Nyeta! Kinantahan niya ako ng "A Little Fall of Rain" when somebody broke my heart. :-& And he gives good advice, too... "Ria, maghanap ka ng lalakeng mayaman." LOL! Seriously, he does. He is also every bloggers' Kuya. Formerly known as Mr. Alleba, he is now Mr. Ratified. He is the reason why I am now a blogger and…