Subtitle: An Obligatory New Year Post January The year didn't really start start out with a bang. I was a pretty boring month and one of my more interesting blog posts was a LOL Google Adsense moment. But it was also the month I started on a new business which was jumpstarted by planning and coordinating my cousin's wedding. I also bought myself a belated Christmas gift which has helped a lot in my blogging. February February was a defining month for me. After the success of my cousin's wedding, I decided to do the leap and be a wedding coordinator. It was also the time I tried out and enjoyed speed dating. Hope there's another one this year. March March was remarkable mostly because of work and blogging-related things, but also because I was happy. For the first time in a long time, I was truly happy. I cannot remember why I wrote that entry, but I can vaguely remember what I felt back then. And somehow that makes me happy right now, and gives me hope that I can be where I was back then. Maybe coz it was my ex's and my 6th "monthsary"? No? Thought so!…
For Daddy
Unlike Mommy whom we were able to surprise on her 60th birthday, we were unable to surprise Daddy. Primarily because he had his birthday parties planned weeks before his birthday. Daddy is Luis C. Bonguyan. He's not my biological father but he is my Daddy. Daddy is the brother-in-law of my biological father. He and his wife (my father's sister), brought me up since I was a baby. He was the one who took care of me since Mommy had to take care of my younger cousin. When I was 7 years old, Daddy entered politics and he retired (cross fingers) just last year. He is one of the reasons why despite all the chaos and corruption in politics, I still believe that there are some out there who are true public servants. And even when false accusations are hurled at him, he never fought dirty. One thing that is very remarkable about Daddy is his smile. He has a warm (unfake) smile that matches his amiable and very sociable personality. And uhmmm... he is as noisy as I am. HAR! As a father, Daddy is fair and kinda strict. He used to threaten us with spanking but I don't…
Guys Without Balls
Yes, I know my dear Kringy already wrote about this, but I want to lash out today so here goes... I know I'm not the typical sweet subservient girly girl that guys would love to have but hey... I have qualities that guys with balls of steel would be lucky to have. I'm independent (NOT CLINGY or NEEDY), earn my own money, enjoy things that guys enjoy, smart (according to my HS IQ result), not the jealous type, and look decent (ie NOT FUGLY) with big boobs. But apparently, I attract GWB. In HS, there was a guy who toyed with my feelings but ended up with the girl who everyone wanted for him. Another guy didn't pursue me coz he thought I was better off with another guy. That other guy didn't like commitments. I pretty much kept to myself in college. Thus, nothing. After college,... guy who suddenly vanished into nowhere and reappears armed with charms every now and then guy who got back together with his "ex" because "wala na akong magawa" guy who does drugs and says inappropriate things every now and then guy who cannot get out of his on and off relationship guy I…
The Greatest Thing
"The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love, and be loved in return." -Moulin Rouge One of my favorite movies is Moulin Rouge. Partly because of the line above. Yes, to love and be loved is the greatest thing one can experience. It is hard to love. It is a daunting thing to accept, understand, nurture, to love a person. It is difficult to choose to be with another person, to make that life a part of who you are, even if you don't have to. Much harder, I think, is to be loved in return. We choose to love. That choice is in our hands. But to be loved in return, that is not something we choose. It it something that the other person chooses for us. To be loved in return is one of the best things one can experience. But no matter how hard you love, how badly you want it to happen, how much you work for it, being loved in return... Is not something you can easily get. That is exactly why it is such a great thing, the best thing to love and be loved in return. Being in the business of…
Poker Face
A few days after comparing my love/relationship skills to how I play poker, I saw this music video... How timely! Here's the lyrics to Radio Gaga's Poker Face: POKER FACE Radio Gaga Mum mum mum mah Mum mum mum mah I wanna hold em' like they do in Texas Plays Fold em' let em' hit me raise it baby stay with me (I love it) Luck and intuition play the cards with Spades to start And after he's been hooked I'll play the one that's on his heart Oh, oh, oh, oh, ohhhh, ohh-oh-e-ohh-oh-oh I'll get him hot, show him what I've got Oh, oh, oh, oh, ohhhh, ohh-oh-e-ohh-oh-oh, I'll get him hot, show him what I've got Can't read my, Can't read my No he can't read my poker face (she’s got to love nobody) Can't read my Can't read my No he can't read my poker face (she’s got to love nobody) P-p-p-poker face, p-p-poker face (Mum mum mum mah) P-p-p-poker face, p-p-poker face (Mum mum mum mah) I wanna roll with him a hard pair we will be A little gambling is fun when you're with me I love it) Russian Roulette is not the same without…
Tuesday Morning Musings
It's one of those moments when I feel like I have to blog. There's a big part of me that's happy with the way things are. Work is fulfilling, business is doing well, I have friends, and men... Well, they're raining around me. Kinda. But there's also a part of me, discontent with my life. Like there's something more out there. The feeling of being un-challenged and bored is unsettling. I know I should want and aim for more, for better. Just because I practically have everything I need, I should be happy. Thankful, yes. Content and complacent, no. I know I can do and have better.