Ok so, I am not really Zen and not likely to be in that state of peace and calm. Nonetheless... I had dinner with my relatives because today was Tito Jing's birthday. As it was a family affair, the people I loathed most were there. GRAWRRR! And one of them was especially annoying today. Seeing childish person acting like she has done nothing wrong towards me was damn irritating. Every time I see her and her minions laughing and smiling, I feel not just pain but great anger. Yes, anger. I was going to write a very long angry angsty post again. But why waste more words, energy, and bandwidth on useless crap shit load of people? Well, I know I just did a bit of that and it feels better to unload a bit. HAHA! Anyway, I don't feel much better now. I'm struggling to feel better. Maybe, as Kuya advised, I should really learn how to be apathetic and numb. Hmmm... I am definitely not the Zen type of person. And right now, I am so not in the mood to be the bigger, better person. But hey, I'm doing effin fine without them and their stupid rules…
Category: life
Happy and Sad
I was at the LandCo Building yesterday for a job interview. I used to work in that building and I was expecting to see some old colleagues and students while I was there. And I was excited about it. When I arrived, I immediately saw a familiar face, that of an old classmate. Weird... After my interview, while waiting for Kuya Andrew to pick me up. I saw a couple of old colleagues. One of them, I was close to. And she's pregnant. I actually knew already that she was pregnant but it was my first time to see her tummy. She was glowing and pretty. I could only wish I would be that pretty IF I get pregnant (millions of years from now). After my colleagues left, my old student Pam arrived. I miss her, huhu... She was happy to see me, and thought I was back to teaching. But I wasn't. Saaad... She had grown so tall and looks more like her sister, Mary now. It has been months since I last saw both of them. I miss them already and their "Wes" and "Kunyangs." I vowed that I would take them out soon.I didn't know I missed…
Being a Bitch
I once described myself as being bitchy and somebody chastised me for it. Today, Noemi Dado blogged about her "Bitch Powers". And yeah, I agree with her. If being a bitch means being "a strong woman who has her own identity and is secure with who she is," then by all means... let me be a bitch, call me a bitch because I am a bitch. So YEY to all Bitches!
Happy
Despite problems, people who try to bring me down, bouts of depression (not clinical), illnesses and stress, I am happy. Things are starting to fall into place. Loose ends are being tied up. Best of all, I am moving on. Every now and then. I can still feel the pain, I still get angry, and my bitterness remain... but I am able to live with it, determined to be better, be content, be HAPPY. Some things might not change, some people might never change. Some situations and issues will never be resolved. They never will, and I won't even expect them to. There is a certain peace achieved when one learns to just accept things as they are, no matter how wrong or unfair they are. One can be happy despite life and its pitfalls. All it takes is courage. Courage to decide to be happy, to choose to move on. It takes courage because not everybody can easily do it. I, for one, took a lot of time and encouragement from other people so that I could accept the way things are and move on. It's hard to be a good person, harder to be the better and bigger…
What Have I Been Up To?
I know, I know. My personal blog *ehem*THIS ONE*ehem* has been quite boring. I haven't been all emo and angsty. And I haven't been really excited about anything either. Not that my life is boring. On the contrary, my life has been very HECTIC. For one, I have been building my own business. It's a consultancy and events firm. Initially, it was formed to accommodate the consultancy work I have been doing, and to market some IT events here in Davao City. Luckily, somebody mistakenly finally asked me to be a co-coordinator of their wedding. I have been waiting for this chance. While it is very stressful, I find it very exciting and fulfilling. So now, I am focusing on promoting and providing customized wedding coordination services, and I have been getting a lot of inquiries. I already have my first real client. YEY! Somebody also hired me to be their wedding reception's emcee. So again, YEY! And I've been promoting my new business via my blog, and I have just earned my very first cents from it. LOL! Another thing I've been busy with giving talks. So far, I have been to Marbel to talk about Internet Marketing and…
My Speed Dating Experience
Last Friday, I hurried to Caffe Vivere at around 7 pm for the speed dating event. I. WAS. LATE. When I arrived, I saw three guys, two of them were already my friends. After a while, the other participants arrived. Meantime, me and my guy friends chatted while eating some food. I wanted to eat more but I was you know... trying not too eat too much. LOL! I also had some of their fabulous iced tea. YUMMY! I was kinda worried though because as moments passed by, more and more guys started arriving. It was kinda intimidating to be the only girl. Good thing other girls also started arriving after a while. Peculiar thing though, some participants arrived in twos, but according to them they're not a couple. ANYWAY... Around past 8 pm, there were enough participants to get the ball rolling. So there I was, armed with my score sheet and the #4. I took my seat and got to meet bachelor #4. After eight minutes... came bachelor number #5. At the end of the thing, I got to meet eight guys. All of them were interesting... but in different ways, and at different levels. Would I consider…