It's 5 am. I can't sleep. I finished my iBlog presentation a few hours ago. Been doing some last minute blogging tasks. Just finished chatting with a friend... and now I'm crying. It hit me... been waiting for this moment for months. Now it's here. But things have changed significantly. And there's really nowhere to go but forward. But this moment now, I wish I can go back and change just one bit of time so the next moments would be better. DAMN DAVID COOK! DAMN MARIAH CAREY! DAMN!!! {Thing is when I started crying... I thought... this is sooo BLOGGABLE! I SHOULD BLOG THIS! LOL!}
Category: life
Doubt
"If in doubt, don't." I don't really remember where and when I heard this line, but it has stuck with me since. Right now, my head is clouded with great doubt. While I trust people, there is this nagging feeling that something is not right. I don't know what exactly, but I know there's something wrong. I hate doubting people, but for now, I think it's best to think of myself first and trust my instincts.
Something I Just Have to Say
I once read that the thing we hate most about other people is a reflection of the thing that we hate most about ourselves. Say for example, we hate how other people are sarcastic. It says something about how we hate how we are also, in some ways, sarcastic. In more ways, than I would like to admit, I think there is a lot of truth to this. Some amount of introspection has made me become more patient and somehow accepting of other's faults, or for a more accurate term... my pet-peeves. Because somehow, these pet-peeves are the things I hate in myself. I hate people who are late, because I hate it when I'm late. I hate it when people disregard other people's feelings, because I hate it when I do or say things without thinking twice how it would affect other people. I hate it when people give their opinion without really backing up what they say, or when they say things just because it is convenient for them to say these things. Because I regret it when I open my mouth without really knowing the bigger picture, or without really being involved in the things I am…
Disconnected
Did you ever feel like life is happening around you but you are not a part of it? That's what I feel right now. I feel a sort of disconnection with the world, like things are happening around me and I'm too caught up with the different things I am busy with to be part of the bigger picture. It's like there's that great big world out there... and I'm not part of it. I have the life I'm living and all the work I'm doing. I am actually quite happy with my life right now. But it feels like something is missing. It's like I do not belong to the world where other people are, like I have this tiny space, all to myself... a bubble where all that exists is me and my life and nobody can really fully understand who I am, what I feel, what I am doing. I also feel like a fish in an aquarium. Isolated, not with others but seen by others. I'm not a celebrity, but my blogs sometimes act like that glass wall that separates me from the outside world. It separates me, and at the same time, it broadcasts and…
My Day
Today I slept at around 3 am, woke up at 6:30 am. Ate breakfast at McDonald's then went directly to the Sangguniang Panglungsod. Was at the city council session until 12 noon. It was, at times, interesting and educational, but also boring and annoying sometimes. Some questions and statements made were just sooo illogical or simply not well thought of (translation: DI PINAG-ISIPAN!). Nonetheless, it was quite amusing. Lunch break was declared at 12 noon and we had to come back at 1:30 pm. I ate yummy beef stew at De Bonte Koe ALONE! At 1:30 pm, the session resumed, and proceeded with haste until it ended at 2:30 pm. I then went to the office, worked online until around 7 pm, then ate dinner with Kuya Andrew at Caffe Vivere. The Chicken Ballentine was yum-yum-yummy! We then went to Kuya's house to continue working but we both realized we were just too damn tired and stressed. So we wrapped up before 10 am, and decided to go to the nearby K1 Spa. Kuya had an aromatic body massage while I had my foot scrubbed and my face cleaned and massaged. I fell into a brief but very refreshing nap.…
Bad Boys Ravish Only Young Girls But Violet Gives Willingly
"Bad Boys Ravish Only Young Girls But Violet Gives Willingly" When I was in second year high school, we had to memorize this line... Why you ask? Coz electricians are pervs who created this mnemonic for memorizing values of the bands in resistors. See those colored lines in those resistors? Those determine the resistance (in unit ohms) of each resistor. We had to calculate the total resistance of each resistor based on the values of those colors. Each color stands for a value... and memorizing the mnemonic would help us remember the values. Black - 0 Brown - 1 Red - 2 Orange - 3 Yellow - 4 Green - 5 Blue - 6 Violet - 7 Grey - 8 White - 9 For the complete guide on how to compute, read this. Astig no? Ala lang... reminiscing my high school days. I miss my techno boys! :( This post was inspired by this post.