In solidarity with my colleagues at Avatar Media, here's my list of ten things I want to accomplish in 2010: Wear a tankini. Which implies I must lose weight and stay fit and healthy. I hope to accomplish this by May 2, 2010, the date of a planned island tour. Buy a netbook. Save money. Budget efficiently. Do not create a new blog. I already have too many blogs on my own and I have several others that I am maintaining. I need to focus more in maintaining the ones I currently have. Read 5 books. Last year, I spent most of the year just re-reading books I have already read. Must read more. Attend dance classes. Last year, I made a goal of attending culinary classes and I would like to think that was a major success. This year, I want to re-kindle my love for dancing, learn new skills, and stay fit. Travel around Mindanao. Must visit at least 3 places. I want to travel but don't have much budget. Plus, I think Mindanao is a really great place to explore. Organize at least 4 events. The Davao Bloggers and the Avatar Media Team both have a lot…
Category: life
Being a Duck
November started out with being confined in my aunt's house due to a severe asthma attack, punctuated by a meet-up with an ex, a meltdown caused by politics, cooking and baking for relatives, a couple of poker tournament wins, and a hectic work schedule. Articles. Blog entries. New projects. Deadlines. It's December and the madness continues. I am being like a duck. Calm, smiling, constantly perky and warming up to the new people I meet. But underneath it all is frantic paddling, crazy panic, and random bouts of insecurity and depression. Do not let the smile fool you. Don't let the blog entries and articles deceive you. Let it be known that the blog entries and articles, and amount of work I do is symptomatic of how troubled I am. I fight depression and loneliness by writing. Example... When the Maguindanao Massacre happened, I wrote 3 blog entries, one right after the other. Totally not about the incident. That's how I roll. Paddling... crazy ass fighting of emotions, struggling to beat the odds, to survive this crazy life. As I've told a good friend, I have not been ok for quite sometime, and I have been lonely. But I'm ok…
It Was a Good Night
I had a feeling it was not gonna be perfect but that it was gonna be a good one. And I was right! CACS Davao Skills Batch 9: Cucina Nueve's Legacy Buffet was a good one. ;-) We were a bit harried and chaotic during the few hours from closing the kitchen and transferring the food to Linmarr Apartelle, but everything before and after that was done well. Not perfect but more than good enough. The food was on time, save for the last minute preparations and presentation of the sashimi and maki. (Apologies to my groupmates coz I wasn't able to fully help out with the Cold Kitchen.) And everything looked delicious. There were some kinks here and there but there weren't a lot of complaints regarding the food. Must commend the yummy Waldorf Salad, the superb Chicken Florentine, the tasty Roast Beef and the sinful pastry spread. TWO THUMBS UP! Kasali pati big toes!!! The program was not boring (I hope) and the tarpaulins and videos I made were nice. And the music we played were good enough for the lulls. What made the dinner really beautiful was the very, very, very elegant and bonggang-bonggang set-up by Sul…
Experience the C2 Life
I was complaining to my friend about how tired I am of life, work and everything else... when I stumbled upon this video: And it seriously made me smile. :) It's an entry to Experience the C2 Life video contest, made by Peter Ian Mancao and Angelo Agojo. The video is well made, nicely edited, and the concept is simple but very good. Very well-executed. Their blurb on the video says... Experience the C2 Life! We all see the world through our own eyes, and we all lead our lives uniquely. But the little ways by which we enjoy moments will always be the one good thing we all commonly share. Whether it's spending time with a special someone, bonding with our friends at the park, dancing our hearts out, meeting somebody new unexpectedly, or even just appreciating life's little wonders on our own -- everything is simply about the goodness that we feel and the life we create. That's exactly our C2 experience. How about you? :) This video made me realize that there are still beautiful things in life, touchstones I can look forward to within this day, month, year or for the rest of my life that…
Crazy Days Ahead
This week began well. Better than most, I must say. But here's what's in store for me until the end of September: Bake cookies, eclairs, brownies, and butterscotch bars at least twice a week Website updates and editing and uploading of photos for the Metro Card Club Davao site Cover and take photos of Sunday events at the Metro, and update the league tally twice a week Attend the Make Your Own Havaianas event and make a write up Prepare for our batch's legacy buffet (there should be sub-bullets here but that would bore you) Prepare, edit, and finalize two company profiles Track the performance of a client's contractor Write two articles a week for my newspaper column Blog Campaign for the Philippine Blog Awards Bloggers' Choice Special Award :P Organize and coordinate two upcoming bloggers' events Attempt to have some sort of social life It's really gonna be very crazy. But I gotta a feeling... I think it's gonna be a great September. ;-) That's it. For now. Wish me luck people. :)
Ok Lang Ako
"Ok lang ako," that's what I say when I am not fine but don't want people to know. Growing up, I was brought up to do as I please, say what I want, and not to be shy. But something happened along the way and I learn to be less like myself and say things I don't mean. And until now, I would answer "Ok lang ako," even when I'm hurting so bad, even when I am struggling, even when there's nothing more I want to do except lie in bed and stop living. Nowadays, I say that line more often. "Ok lang ako." Even when I am not. Because I do not want people to fuss. I do not want people to think I am weak, that I cannot handle myself, that I do stupid things. I know I am not perfect, nobody is. But I do not want people to see me for who I really am... weak and lonely. I know that's not all I am right now. But that's how I feel. And this blog post, it's nothing more than a confession that I am starting to crumble... near my breaking point. That no... hindi ako…