Dear Love,
It has been a long time. I have been meaning to write for weeks now but I always forgot to do so. Not because I have no reason to share but, well, because I have been too preoccupied. And I have also started journaling.
My entries are mostly short and not as profound as I would like them to be. I often write about an hour before I sleep. So I am usually sleepy or tired. I am still undecided about how I should proceed with journaling. Should I just do as I do now and write about whatever my thoughts are at the end of the day? Or should I try to be more creative? I do want to try to do creativity exercises but I am still unsure about that.
My days have been long and productive since January 1. But the past week has been hard. Nothing bad happened. Nothing big really. I was just exhausted. Physically, mentally, and emotionally.
I did not plan to rest or take a break but I slept late on Monday because of F1 and was happy to see that I had coincidentally scheduled Tuesday as rest day. And I decided that I would spend the rest of the week just doing whatever. I still did my morning meditations, but I occasionally skipped workout time. And when I woke up too late in the day, I skipped my beloved coffee time, as well. It really gave me a breather and a chance to enjoy things.
I still did some work and accomplished important tasks. But I barely logged in my required number of hours. I felt a bit of guilt, but my desire to take it easy won me over.
Just yesterday, a few hours ago, I did my guided meditation and it taught me to practice self-affection. Coincidence, maybe? But it was definitely helpful in making me appreciate how well I spent my past week. I feel less guilty. Soon, I wish to share with you more about the things I have been learning through meditation.
I recognize and accept that I am lucky and privileged to be spending an entire week not really working and not worry about it. I wish everybody had the same opportunity because everybody needs it.
Now, a new week is here and I have already started grinding past midnight. And it feels good. Somehow, “wasting” my time and resting the past week has given me new energy and content to work on.
I thank myself and all my privileges that I am able to do what I love and work as I please. I am now thinking if maybe I should reserve a week a month for rest and play. Yes? I think it would benefit me. We’ll see.
Much as I was satisfied and happy at how productive I was in January and the first half of February, it left me feeling tired and spent. Plus, the daily workouts and morning routine really took its toll on me. As I have mentioned, there were days when I dreaded going to sleep and woke up groaning. Now, I am actually excited to do my routine later.
Thing is, I have to really work earnestly on the three weeks I am supposed to work for me to earn and enjoy my rest week. So there is a payoff but I think it will work out well for me.
Wow! I shared too much about nothing much except my thoughts and minor struggles.
I miss this. Writing to you… and talking as if there is somebody there listening with their whole heart. And doing this has made me feel happy and relieved. I should do this more often. For me.
Take care, love. There will be more to share and talk about soon.
❤️
02/22/21
Take a break if you must, it helps in boosting your productivity and improves your mental well-being.
I missed writing and expressing what I feel on my blog, I used to be emo decades ago, lol. I’ve actually hidden those post na, makaulaw… 😅
Self-care is important and we must grab every opportunity to do it.
Hi, miss Ri! Do you usually write everything you feel and think in Dear Love journals such as this? Or you keep some things to yourself?
I have a journal which I am supposed to write in every day but have been neglecting. I also track my mood and some stuff in a mood tracker app. And when the feelings are overwhelming or something I specifically want to share, I blog it here.
The Dear Love series format is something I use when I have something I want to share spontaneously that I haven’t thought out or carefully wrote. Like when I want to talk to somebody but do not have anybody to talk to, want to talk to myself. It depends really.
But yes, I do keep some things to myself but often, I still end up sharing it here or writing them somewhere.