My FB Status Message, July 6, 2010:

“I think life is not to be understood but lived. I have tried hard to make sense of things, but I have realized that smarts and logic only get me so far. The rest of it, like love, destiny, stupidity… those I cannot fully comprehend. The best way to deal with life is to let things be. I choose to let things go and let life be. Hopefully, this will make me a better and happier person. LIVE. LOVE. LEARN. ♥”

Yes, I have decided to let things be, let things go, let life take it’s course. Most of my life, when I wasn’t being stupid or too emo, I took life seriously and thought that my a would lead to b. That every action has a consequence proportionate to the action.

If I do something good, good things will happen to me. If I study hard and get good grades, I will get rewards. If I do well, I’ll be praised. If I behave, I’ll be given a pat on the back. If I am a good friend or girlfriend, the relationship will last.

If I do bad things, bad things will happen to me. If I don’t study, I will struggle with my grades. If I don’t to well, I’ll be criticized. If I don’t behave, I will be admonished. If I am not a good friend or girlfriend, the relationship won’t last.

But I have come to realize, that this is not necessarily true in the real world. Life is cruel. Sometimes you study hard and work hard yet reap little or no rewards at all. Even when you do well or perform excellently, some people won’t praise you. When some people misbehave, they do not get admonished or criticized. Yet even when you try your best to behave, nobody is there to tell you that you’re great. And even when you give your all, be the best friend, love sincerely and generously, some relationships just don’t last.

We do not always get what we deserve. That’s the sad truth. And that’s what makes us angry, sad, and frustrated.

So I have decided to accept that this is the way of the world. That sometimes it isn’t as logical as I hope it would be. That being smart, making the right choices, and doing the right things won’t always make me happy or yield for me the results that I want. But it does make me a better person.

Life is painful. Even when you do your best, try to become the best person you can be, kill yourself working hard and trying hard to be the best friend or lover, things will not always go well. Shit happens. All the time.

But these are what also makes life beautiful. When great things happen, when we finally get what we want, need, and deserve, it gives us so much joy and fulfillment. When we achieve our aims and reach our goals, despite life’s challenges, we feel triumphant.

Life is crazy. It might not always give us what we need, what we deserve, but it gives wonderful surprises that challenge us to go beyond ourselves and become the person we never thought we’d be.

When I was a kid, I have always wanted to become a writer. But after going to a science high school and being trained HARD CORE in science and mathematics for around 8 years, I never thought I’d be here, a writer. And it is because of many crazy shit, good and bad, that happened to me that led me to where I am now. Life is beautiful that way.

So I am letting things be, letting life take it’s course. And hope, hope very hard, that in time, I will get where I am supposed to be; whether it is where I want to be, I don’t know yet. But I am enjoying the ride.

I am living my life. Loving every moment of it, along with the crazy people I take the ride with. And learning from every challenge I take.

Live. Love. Learn.