I saw two trailers of Muli (The Affair) by awarded indie filmmaker, Adolf Alix featuring Sid Lucero and Cogie Domingo. It’s about two men falling in love and about how their love story transpires through time. I have not seen the film, and some people might be iffy to watch it. But the first scene of this trailer spoke to me…

Sid: Bakit kasi tayo naghahanap ng pareha? Eh kaya natin mag-isa? Para may mag-aalaga sa atin?

Cogie: Naghahanap tayo ng kapareha para mahalin natin. Para hindi natin maramdaman ang lungkot.

English Translation:

Sid: Why do we look for a partner when we can survive even when we’re alone? So that there would be somebody to take care of us?

Cogie: We look for a partner so we could love him So we won’t feel the loneliness.

Through all the frustrations, pains of heartbreaks and heartaches, dating the wrong people, investing emotions on the wrong people, crushed hopes and dreams, jaded views of love and marriage, there’s still a part of me that yearns for a partner.

And it’s not because I want to be kilig all the time. Relationships are hardwork, I tell you. But because through all the joys and failures, laughter and tears that life gives me, I’d like to have somebody to share it with.

I’d like to love and care for somebody deeply, whole-heartedly, sincerely, unconditionally. And be able to share with that person all there is about me and all that I have. Through whatever craziness I experience, there is that one person there. Constant. My rock. Somebody who will make me feel that I am never alone.

That no matter how successful I become or how hard I fail, he is there to hold my hand and make me feel secure. No matter how much pain I go through, no matter how ill I am, how depressed I am, how sad I am, I am never lonely. Never alone. Never scared that I might die and nobody will know.

He will be the one constant thing in my life that has been a flurry of changes and surprises. And I, his rock. His constant companion, the one who will hold his hand through the good and bad times in his life. The person he will go home to ready to take care of him and listen to how his day was.

There will be fights. Challenges. Drama. Maybe even infidelities. And yet we will remain constant. Steady. A fixture in each other’s life.

How about you, why do you love?