"Ok lang ako," that's what I say when I am not fine but don't want people to know. Growing up, I was brought up to do as I please, say what I want, and not to be shy. But something happened along the way and I learn to be less like myself and say things I don't mean. And until now, I would answer "Ok lang ako," even when I'm hurting so bad, even when I am struggling, even when there's nothing more I want to do except lie in bed and stop living. Nowadays, I say that line more often. "Ok lang ako." Even when I am not. Because I do not want people to fuss. I do not want people to think I am weak, that I cannot handle myself, that I do stupid things. I know I am not perfect, nobody is. But I do not want people to see me for who I really am... weak and lonely. I know that's not all I am right now. But that's how I feel. And this blog post, it's nothing more than a confession that I am starting to crumble... near my breaking point. That no... hindi ako…