It’s been months… almost two months. We’ve been friends since then. But I miss him.
Or maybe I miss what we had… having that someone who is always there. I know we were never physically with each other, but there was something across the miles through messages, chats, calls, and even the moments we were just thinking of each other that was comforting.
And it’s not just him making lambing or trying to make pa-cute. I miss the thought of being with someone, taking care of someone, of the idea that I matter to someone, that somebody listens and understands what I say and do, and even those I don’t say and do.
Maybe I am in love with love, maybe I just need that somebody to be there with me, maybe…
It’s all so confusing. There are times when I am happy, when I am at peace with what happened, fully accepting that what happened had to happen, that what we had was simply going nowhere. But then there are times, such as now, when I feel sad and lonely, when I reminisce and wish I could have it all again.
I don’t know what I really miss, need, or want.
But this I know for sure, I haven’t been same since, like there’s something missing in my life. I don’t know what though… maybe it’s him, maybe what we had, maybe a totally different thing unrelated to him or what we had.
Lemme give you a hug *hugs*
I miss the feeling of being in love with someone who loves you too..
oh well.. kamusta na sya?
@micamyx – Doing better but he needs to rest a lot to really recover. Marami pa rin sila ibang problems ng family niya aside from his health. 🙁
may darating din ate ri. 🙂 or baka kailangan mo lang maghanap. 😉
Pray =)
@Winston – Either way… SANA!
@Ate Aileen – 🙂
Awwww. *hugs*
Darating din ang taong magpapaligaya sa’yo
@Ade – I *hugs* you back. 🙂
Ria:
From someone who’s in love with love (uh… yeah, i don’t take my own advice myself):
Don’t rush. In the meantime, count the things you do have. You’d be surprised to see that there are so many other things than can make you happy, and those things are more than enough to offset the sadness that came with a love long since past.
Treasure those memories you had, treasure the moments you have, and treasure whatever’s in store for you in the future. You may never have it all again, but there will always be those memories. Hold on to them, and never let go. 😀
Take it from me: in the end, there really isn’t anything “missing” in your life. Like a mathematical function (egad), there are only things you can add to your life. Keep adding. Infinity lies beyond. 😉
regards,
marck
@cesar noel – 🙂
@Marck – Awww… I love the Math mention. HAHA!
@Ade: Wag na kasi automatic. Mariatic na! (ay parang asido pakinggan)
I feel exactly the same way right now 🙂 And being summer only seems to make things worse… What’s your sign?
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