There are times such as this one when I envy other people. I don't like who they are, what they do, what they have... but I want to be them because they are happy. Despite who they are, and what they do, they enjoy themselves and have people, who, for certain, accept and love them no matter what. I guess that's what I really want, all I need, what I should aim for 2008, be happy no matter what. I know it's a long shot. And I am finding it hard to choose to be happy right now. But there must be some way that I can finally stop being jealous of people I don't even like with lives and morals I do not want.