...for now. We talked things over, and we decided it's going to be a rough ride. But we're both willing to weather this storm. I just hope we continue to grow and learn from this experience. Otherwise, it will be all for naught.
Year: 2007
Confused
I don't know what to do, what to say, what to think, what to feel anymore. Pros and cons, positives and negatives, what ifs, consequences, repercussions, anxieties, and fears all crowd my mind right now. There are times, moments when things seem easy, when deciding and choosing is possible. But there are times when all becomes hazy again. Why does it have to be so hard? In paper, what I have to do seems clear and easy to pick. But the reality is... it's not. It's not as easy as it seems, not as simple as I want it to be. I keep on hoping that maybe soon enough all will be clear, that suddenly, I will decide... we will decide and stand by it no matter what, for the sake of ourselves. But that does not seem to be in the horizon. For now, everything is up in the air. Now I know what "It's complicated" truly means and it's not a good thing. It's as if our lives, what we have, our feelings are in a limbo. One wrong step and everything will fall and break. And one correct move will make everything better. It takes just one…
Things I Learned from a Jeepney Ride
While riding the jeepney this afternoon, ito ang mga katagang bumulaga sa akin... "Women offers sex to get love. Men offers love to get sex." "Life is a joke. Joke is the life."
Trapped Once Again?
As I was browsing through the archives of Random Ria, I stumbled upon something I said which, I think, is something very moving... Sometimes something earth-shattering happens in our lives. And in our quest to have a sense of normalcy, we get trapped in a routine. Unfortunately, our routine only reminds us of the pain and suffering. And instead of normalcy, what we get is a deathtrap of emotions. But still we are afraid, afraid to move on, afraid of change, afraid that another thing might only give us more pain. Unfortunately, our fear and anxiety paralyze us. I don't remember what happened then, what compelled me to write this, but it might have been something important enough, something big enough for me to write. Today, as I read it, I feel the same emotions. Am I trapped once again?
Fabulous!
Coz I rarely wear a dress or anything girly, I think Tia Alot's Birthday Extravaganza at the Marco Polo last week deserves a post. Here are some fabulous pictures of me and my cousins who were all forced to dress up for the event... Me Chian and I plotting which city CORPO will conquer next. Me and cutie pie Anyssa who was in a good mood. Tinky the super late comer, Me, and Kuya Andrew Gwing, Kuya, and Me DotA Princesses: Me, Gwing, and Luan Me, Gwing, and Luan doing our FEELING SUPERSTAR POSE!
Lessons I Learned Today
Here are some things I realized throughout this day... 1.) Be patient. 2.) Don't not be quick to say things when you are angry. You might regret it. 3.) Trust. 4.) When feeling intense emotions, take a deep breath, work, immerse yourself in productive things rather than wallow in anger or pain. 5.) Let go of things that only add to your stress especially if these things do not contribute to your personal growth. 6.) Smile. Laugh. There's always something to be happy about. 7.) Be thankful. There is always something to be thankful for.